Note: i cant get my mood thing to change, but i'm really not happy

What you may ask has sunk in? Homesickness, i never thought i'd EVER say this, but i miss Morgan, i had friends there and my parents are still there and i haven't seen them for close to a month... Don't get me wrong, i like it here, the freedom is nice, but my brother and roommate are always at work or out with their friends, and they go to bed insanely early so even when their home i'm lonely. I'm always welcome at my sister's house but her and i can only spend do much time together before we're ready to kill eachother.
I can't find a job even though i've filled out a zillion applications, so i'm always bored now and i feel horrible for having to ask my parents for money, even though all i buy is super cheap food and gas.
My mom suggested that i join some clubs, but the only ones i'm interested in meet when i'm in class.

OH! and to top it all off, my dad has to have ANOTHER surgery for his back, this time their going to have to fuse the disks, so i'm super worried about him and mom because now that dad's back is messed up worse he can't take care of mom when she's sick, so mom has to come down here for Sis to take care of her, which leaves dad alone in Morgan untill they finally get moved, and dad doesn't do well all by himself with just the cats... I just feel so guilty for leaving mom and dad alone when they need someone to help take care of them.